my shoes hurt

i've been working at lot, as mentioned before, and i got new non-slick shoes. first of all, they are HARDLY non-slick. i'm still almost catching death every time i go in, and those things absolutely murder my feet. i don't usually sit down at work because it's just not an option for me, but i had to sit down last night. i thought my heels were going to cave in. and then i got a headache, which is usually a good indication that my body is trying to beg for something. so i drank some water and all it did was send me to the bathroom 12 times.

did i mention i'm a manager at skyline now? i'm hoping this is just a temporary situation... unless they offer me $30k a year with benefits. so, as a manager, i'm supposed to be on top of everything both inside and outside the restaraunt and keep my employees happy and working. it's quite hard to be friendly when your head is barking orders at you. so i was done with all my managerial duties at around 10:30pm, which is actually pretty good considering i'm interrupted quite often by the other employees. i didn't leave until after 11 because the dude on dish likes to take his dear, sweet time. then again, his car was vandalized last night so i can't get too mad at him. he's not exactly the most liked guy at that store. i think the only reason i get along with him is because he -- like myself -- is quite the gamer. so we at least have things to talk about when we work together. he just needs a little direction sometimes, which is fine compared to some other people who wouldn't know their ass from a hole in the ground. i sometimes wonder where these people came from, because i'm pretty sure NONE of them were trained properly, and that tends to get in the way of the quality of the product. though i couldn't give two shits less about skyline chili, i care enough so i may prevent as little customer confrontation as possible. i don't like having to fix other peoples' mistakes, but because nobody is perfect it happens very often. as the manager, i have to care about how well the other employees do because their actions speak louder about MY character than it does theirs. so i have to care at least a little bit. i mean-- i show up, work my ass off, and get paid every two weeks for doing so. that's really all i need right now. and if my next paycheck (and those in the future) are anything like my last one, i'll be living quite nicely this summer and may be able to fly out to see sam in north hollywood.

did i mention i like making money? i like HAVING money much more than spending it, so i see a somewhat debt-free future for myself.

i taught myself how to knit (not without the help of a basic how-to video on youtube) and i like it! it's a neat little hobby. i like it mostly because you can leave and come back to it without skipping a beat. i'm just getting into it, so i don't have any sweaters or hats yet. but i DO have a little green square that may turn into an oven mit! i've also tapped into my creativity again lately, so learning to knit was a mere side-effect. i made some beads out of modelling clay... i painted a little face onto a 2X4... i made a collage and left it for dustin to display in his living room... i also started cooking out of my cook book. i made a bunch of cookies for the holidays (ginger cookies, fudge ecstacies, and chocolate truffles), and then i tried out a mushroom stroganoff recipe last week that was amazing. it's fun to try new things that have been lying around the house for some time. i also made candles out of my mom's candle-making stuff and her coffee mugs. i wrapped all my holiday presents in her old scarves and made the nostalgia part of the gift. it was very neat to uncover these once-loved crafts and finish them a way in which my mom would appreciate. it's definitely a good coping method to give little bits of her memories away. i want to dispurse them as far and wide as possible... the same way her ashes are currently being carried around the world by the ocean currents and water cycle. this is how i believe someone's spirit lives on.

i'm out of steam.

peace and a happy new year!